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| I am now at a fork in my academia where I simply cannot figure out what in hell is my desired career. I have no internship experience, albeit a couple of tedious retailing jobs here and there. I still remember my first paycheck from Target: my first real corporate job. The customer service aspect of cashiering is the only reason why I kept up with that job for the entire summer. I was never really a conventional person to begin with to even fathom about climbing the corporate ladder onto a more prestigious position such as management. My next job at Gap is much more laxed compare to my Target counterpart, but less customers also means more concentration on the working clock. And boy, is it tickling exhaustingly slow.
I've talked to a few of my friends regarding the career topic, some graduated from college, some in the process of graduating and some going nowhere. All three types replied with a simple line: "I don't know". It's almost like the old saying from our fellow undergraduates: "Cross the finish line of high school and you'll see yourself coming out of the 'bubble'. Cross the finish line of college and you'll see yourself heading out into the 'real world'." In both cases, it is never a moment one would ever anticipate. The fear of being on one's own, obligated to bring home a paycheck to make ends meet, the piling up of college loans, along with the struggle to find a balanced career are enough to light multiple firecrackers up one's ass.
In my case, though, I have done some homework in the career department, but to no avail. I have the basic criteria of a job that I'd like, which is one that challenges me with something new each day and allows me to communicate with a wide range of people. A career that allows me to grow intellectually, to stimulate my eternal curiosity and to make a positive impact on others. I just want to make the world a better place...wait no, I just want good paycheck sitting on my ass doing what I love. BUT, the most important thing would have to be prestige. I need a high-above-the-blue-sky position to distinguish myself from the folks in cardboard hats. I did not waste my parents' hard earned loans to become a blue-collar worker. I WANT A THRONE!
These careers came to mind: professor, journalist, editor, producer, translator / interpreter. These are certainly no easy task. However, I do believe that with hard work comes gradual success. Folks, you'd be wise to do the same. Follow your fuckin' feeling.
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| I sometimes feel overwhelmed by party people. It occurred to me when I was walking on the street of SF during PRIDE night. Everyone seems to be having such a good time, granted most were under the influence of alcohol. Yet, for some reasons I could not let loose of myself to feel part of the crowd. The music was playing, people were dancing, drags were parading, sluts were making out etc. Yet there I was..standing still.
Maybe it has to do with my upbringing. Maybe it's because I have my guard up. Maybe it's just not me. Should I just accept being the minority? The average guy who's suddenly shy when he's in a big crowd? Yeah, I do slip up from time to time. Sure is not me when I don't talk.
I got caught up watching True Life today on MTV. It was indeed sad, which made me look at my expenditures in a whole new light. There is nothing worse than to be in debt.
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| It is ridiculous how religion plays such a major influence in our decision making nowaday. I find it rather absurd when certain individuals based their actions solely on some religious bullshit. The condemnation of the gays, the terrorist attack on September 11th, self-proclaimed holy people etc.
There are two types of people: people who believe in God, and people who don't. The latter often prize themselves as being self-reliant. Being a Catholic myself, I feel that there's a force pulling me on both ends. I am a self-reliant Catholic. I do believe that all things happen for a reason, but at the same time, I would also like to take responsibility for everything I do, not placing the weight of my actions on some holy being to avoid the guilt and shame.
The bible is outdated. Get some real education on contemporary issues.
This is a weird entry. It's just an epiphany.
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| Once again, it's one of those nights where I have to keep myself occupied with anything other than sleeping. I finished up a bowl of Teriyaki Rice Gourmet from Costco just a while ago, so my body is still revved up for me to finish up this random entry that I'm about to type.
It has been an eventful first week of school. My classes are great, what with the languages and history. My professors are very attentive, and they are quite the gurus in the respective subject that they teach. I have a constant workload which I dutifully manage, along with an active social life to keep me on my toes. I am growing to love this school more and more each day, and less with the I wish I could be somewhere else tantrum. It has been sunny this entire week, albeit a few drops of rain here and there.
This weekend was probably the most fun I've ever had in months, and what a great way to jump start the 2008 school year. On Friday, I randomly went with Bhaet to play b-ball in the park at night. The next day, I spent the entire afternoon time trying to catch up with homework, leaving the rest of my night dining at China City and chilling with my beloved Korean class. There were Bhaet, Diana, Cat, Benita, Kristi, Mai, Tricia, Alani and me. After the meal, we stuffed ourselves onto Alani's car and made her drive around the parking lot! The reason for this was because I received a fortune cookie telling me that "A four-wheeled adventure will bring you happiness." Judging from what happened, I'd say the fortune came true. It made my night. But wait, there's more. We all decided to visit Alani's crib and stargazed upon her roof, and chilled within her lounge.
After I was dropped off in IV, I decided to go to the Lambda's Rush party with crew to get some calories a'burnin'. I sure danced a whole lot within that cramped and mercilessly loud room, but enjoyed myself nevertheless. The night did not end there though, thanks to Uyen and Susan who kept insisting on doing more post-party stuff. We ordered pizza, crashed Brian Lee's place to play cards, watched movies and ended up staying all until morning. The finale of such an eventful night was the sightseeing of the beautiful sunrise. Uyen, Susan, Brian and I sat on a cliff and caught a glimpse of the sunrise just in time. It was truly a Sunday.
The rest of Sunday was spent catching up on sleep and preparing for All You Can Eat Pho Night, which I guess happens today folks! In any case, a weekend well spent I gotta say.
No matter how many good qualities a person possesses, none of them would amount to anything if he is not a good person. And a good person would not mean anything if he isn't a good person to you. | | |
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